feast of the goat, part 1

ok, so first i need to vent about how difficult its been to get this post up! i woke up yesterday at about 11pm after falling a asleep reading, because i knew i had to do my blog, when i really felt like still sleeping and doing the blog the next day. however, i got up but the stupid internet would not work so i couldnt do the stupid post!!!!!!! haha, ok, enough of that.
so of course, the first thing i noticed was that this story was being told through urania, a woman! ...which is quite a change from the other books. its interesting how there seems to be a sort of dialogue going on, and some quotes without specifying who says it. sometimes it seems like theyre just thoughts that pop up, or maybe someone giving advice, but that someone doesnt necessarily seem clear to me.
also, when urania was just walking around the city, she mentioned how she wanted to go shower and eat at a hotel, but couldn't because she didnt have any money. i couldnt help but put myself in her situation and thought about how much it would suck to be wandering around a city without money...imagine getting hungry and wanting to eat, but not being able to because u dont have money on u! but, i think, where concious or not, she made that choice to put herself in that situation.
so far so good.

the general in his labyrinth, part 2

i cannot help but focus on the general... yet it is hard for me to exactly figure out how i feel about him. he seems so kind and loving, yet it is not with one woman (his wife), it is with many women. also, again, the image of him being pitiful continues to come up, and i cannt help but feel sorry for him, for the way he goes crazy with all of his thoughts. yet, at the same time, it was his choice to do everything he did, so in a sense he brought it upon himself, so then why should i feel sorry for him? ...when all he wanted was to be accepted?
thats the thing, marquez does such a good job of making me feel sorry for him! but i feel its a trap that i dont want to get into! after all, marquez is an amazing writer!

the general in his labyrinth, part 1

what a change! already, so much easier to read. second, i thought that i perhaps wasn't reading it right when the general's assistant, palacios, was described nicely and not as useless and in a negative light. palacios is actually described in postive terms for being so faithful to the general.
of course, another obvious thing that struck me was how the general was described, and the emotions he felt were that of a "real" human being, who loves and has fears. it is such a contrast from the other books that have described the dictator in horrible ways, and in a sense, without "feelings".
also, once again the cathedral is mentioned in this book, as it has been with many of the other books. it is an interesting role that religion has played in the history of dictatorships, which is why i think so many authors have included something symbolizing (like the cathedral) religion in thier books of dictators.
overall, so far so good...

i the supreme part 2

what a book! while it gets more difficult, i seems as though its becoming an even better book. to me, that seems the be the paradox, the greater the book, the harder it is to understand!
something that struck me, even though i know i should think of it as obvious, is the way patiño shows his devotion to the supreme by writing his own death sentence. i mean, i know he was loyal and had to be and everything, but to do as far as writing your own death sentence? thats pretty impressing.
all of the compiler's notes throughout the book are an interesting concept too, but the one at the very end of the book that we looked at in class was interesting as well. even such a short and what seems to be a simple note was hard for me to understand before reading it least 3 times, but even after that i feel like i didn't completely understand what he were saying. the concept of time in the book gets brought up a lot, and its all interesting how there are no quotes in the book, but in the last complier's note there is, quoting the supreme.

i the supreme

i was caught by surprise that i was to have this posted a week ago! i feel horrible for it being so late!

this book is definetly very confusing and time consuming. the first thing i noticed (im sure like everyone else) is that there are no quotations. this made it take longer to read because i would read over a sentence, and then have to re-read it and try to figure out who it is thats supposed to be saying it.

i noticed that because of the inclusion of the compiler's half-missing notes, it gives off the same idea that i got from facundo, that this is a real account. the sense that the book is being written as a historical account.

im still having a hard time getting through this book, its not a a bad book, but i think im not getting everything out of the book that i should be getting, i never considered myself much for someone that was good at appreciating literature that is hard for me to understand. but i think im getting better, and i think by the end of this course, and after reading this book, i will have improved this skill.

the end of the president

i wish it really was the end of such presidents! overall i enjoyed reading this book. because all of the metaphors got a bit confusing, and i began to pay less attention to them, because having so many seemed to lessen their significance. i tried seeing if there were some metaphors that continued to arise, and one of the main ones was of comparing angel face to the devil.
angel face, i liked him from the very beginning, and perhaps in comparing him to the devil it illustrates the paradox in the character that is most close to angel, is viewed at as a devil in the regime of this president. because angel face began helping people escape and changed his beliefs, he became seen as a devil because in doing good deeds, he would only bring trouble, trouble that is brought about by the devil.
it is hard to imagine living under the rule of such a president, seeing that no one can be trusted, not even your closet family members. such a regime made it so that everyone was only looking after themselves and their own life; yet, even after taking as many precautions as possible, the characters were still betrayed and convicted.
in reading this book i could also feel the fear and horrors of living under a dictatorship.